NOW DON'T GO GETTING WORRIED ABOUT ME THIS IS JUST A PLACE TO VENT.......
i JUST want to STICK my HEAD in the SAND and leave it there for 3 more months..
1 day=poop in the underwear 2x's, 1 poop in the yard in the nude, sick kid with a fever, another yelling about something or other. Laundry coming out my ears and never ending because somehow a memo was sent through my house that you are required to change at least 3x's a day. A dog that needs a walk but his owner is just too tired (no sleep because 2 kids made it into her bed last night). A butt that seems to BE just getting larger with every second. A mind that is constantly telling you that you can't do this anymore. No adult conversation for any extended period of time. Not wanting to go to bed but finally resigning that I must because it is 1am and I know this all has to start over tomorrow. a creative rut with dreams of finding yourself again in some beautiful fabric.
BUT THEN SOMEONE COMES TO YOUR HOUSE WITH DINNER AND DESSERT ON TOP OF THAT. sHE DOESN'T JUST DROP IT OFF and run SHE COMES INSIDE EVEN THOUGH HER KIDS ARE IN THE CAR. i AM A LITTLE EMBARRASED AT THE MESSES SCATTERED HERE AND THERE BUT THIS IS ME AND i CAN'T HIDE IT. i AM IMPERFECT, SELF DOUGHTING AND AT TIMES A LITTLE SHORT TEMPERED BUT THIS SMALL GESTURE OF A MEAL AND THEIR TIME REMINDED ME THAT MY HEAVENLY FATHER LOVES ME.
so what does this mean. LIFE is hard sometimes and sometimes it is crappy to have your husband half way around the world. BUT i know that he is safe and that my family is safe. Not much more could be asked.
I WILL TRY A LITTLE HARDER TO GET OFF MY DUFF AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT THAT EVER GROWING BACK SIDE. i WILL LOVE MY KIDS A LITTLE MORE AND THANK MY SAVIOR FOR LOVING ME.
